Big change in Life

I am on a new phase of life where I feel I am loaded with so many big responsibilities. I deal with people who are almost double my age. I can understand what they must be feeling about me. I can’t imagine a 10 or 12 years old child giving me orders and I guess same is their condition right now. But I can’t help it, I am told to change the things I don’t feel right. My life is on a new track. I am coming across many new people each day. It is quite interesting and challenging but difficult at the same time.

I am learning different behaviors; I am dealing with different kind of people, sometimes I feel I am playing with cards and have to be very careful about which card to use. I can actually feel the difference between the time I was working at the same place one and half years back. I used to follow the rules and it was fun too. There was someone to order and I could even involve in the gossip of the teachers. Today I am at such position where I can’t discuss any thing with anyone. I am told to maintain ‘a gap’, which is little difficult task for me. Of course I have my old friendships but I have to keep them away from my work. Every day brings a new challenge. At times I feel I am hurting people by correcting them. But I am left with no option! This is just about my colleagues. There are some ‘horrible’ people with whom I have delt with, ‘a few stubborn parents’. For a ‘shortest tempered’ person like me it becomes difficult to deal with such people. But thankfully somehow he understood my explanation, even though he did not accept his mistake. Lesson I learnt was ‘Realizing a mistake is much more important than accepting a mistake’. The best thing about my job is that I get to talk with really sweet kids. The way they talk is real pleasure. And I miss the time when I used to teach them and they used to tell their parents that they liked me. And I miss the comments ‘ Mam aaj aap bohot ache lag rahe ho’ and the way they used to come and tell me what their mum was talking to their dad. I miss the time I used to be with forty kids around me.

Now my position is different but I know after two years my work will bring lots of maturity in me. I will be able to look at life more practically, will be able to deal with people in a much more better way.

My life has changed in all the ways. I have so much to think, so many thoughts to keep my mind busy. I am realizing what all I can do. I have many skills which I wasn’t aware of till now.